Archive for April 15, 2012

Like Circa 2008

Last Friday, I got an unexpected text message that sent me on a whirlwind of a weekend. My friend Yvonne offered me the chance to go to the New Kids on the Block Town Hall meeting in Los Angeles because she knew of a ticket that was available. To be honest, I hadn’t thought of going because you have to register as a Block Nation fan club member & win a ticket. Since I was no longer a Block Nation member, I figured I wouldn’t be able to go. But when I was offered a ticket because it turns out you can bring a guest, I scrambled to find flights. Then, it turned out the ticket was a +1 from a friend of our other friend, Mayra so I wouldn’t know the person I’d be going in with but I’d still get to go. However, my dilemma was that I had to work on Sunday at 8 am and had to get back in time for that. My mind was in complete chaos and I couldn’t concentrate on work because I had cars, trains & planes on my mind. I finally found something that seemed like it could work for me. I’d just end up possibly being late for work as it was a flight that came in at 7:27 AM. That was cutting it pretty close.

I bought my flights & it cost me $320!! Luckily, I had just gotten paid & hadn’t paid my bills yet so I had money to buy the flights! Yay! I was initially supposed to be filming on Saturday but this was a chance of a lifetime and I live for moments like this. This would be the first Town Hall meeting where all five of NKOTB would be there. The previous 3 that they held were in other states and were always incomplete but since they were together rehearsing for their upcoming European tour with Backstreet Boys, they were all together in LA. What luck! How could I possibly pass this up?

To sum it up, my weekend was PACKED! Friday-work, then film shoot. Saturday-fly to LA, NKOTB Town Hall meeting, Sunday-work, then see “Blue Like Jazz” to support the film because I love Jason Marsden & wanted the movie to do well. All in all, the event was fanfuckintastic! If I had to do it all over again, I wouldn’t have changed a thing. It was really nice to be back in the NKOTB world. I felt like myself, circa 2008, when they first reunited and I got to see my dream boyfriends since I was 13 in the flesh for the very first time. Donnie waved to me from the stage and my heart felt warm & fluttery again as always, whenever he does that. They showed some Fenway footage from when they performed there. Donnie had taken off his shirt in the rain and OMG. I had forgotten how hot he is!! Geezusmaryjoseph, that boy is foine.

Another great thing about being there was that I got to see Kevin again. Ahhh Crunchy Kevin…the NKOTB Pro Tools technician that I switched my crushing to from Donnie Wahlberg back in 2009. I can’t even count the number of great Kevin moments I’ve had from 2009 – 2011. I even got his autograph! Seeing him was fun and it reminded me of how fun it was to crush on him. He was the first guy I ever liked with long hair. It distinguished him from all the others. I made an exception and I realized I needed to break my list of criteria just so I could crush on him. I know, silly, right? He’s changed over the years and I have to admit, I’m a little bit disappointed, but he’s happy so that makes me happy to see that.

The Kevin that I fell in love with no longer exists but he stays in my heart & mind and will always remain the same. He cut his beloved long locks and is now a party boy who hangs out with music geniuses & celebrities, which is fine & dandy but if I had to do this all over again, I would have changed how I was around him. I wouldn’t have been so eager & doting. I would’ve acted more like my real self, my bitchy self, my sarcastic self. Maybe then we could have been better friends. I never wanted anything from him nor did I ask him for anything but the last cruise I went on, he offered to help me get Jon Knight’s autograph on my license plate and I will never forget his kindness. Seeing him last night made me feel all giddy again. I literally was telling myself out loud to GET IT TOGETHER, AVA! I wanted to say hello and take my routine photo with him but I didn’t. I’m done with that. I’m done with putting him on a pedestal and acting like a crazed fan because that’s not the real me. As I was leaving, I passed by his sound booth without saying a word or making any kind of eye contact and walked away. The last time I spoke to him, I told him that was the last time he would ever see me and I intend to keep my promise. We took our last picture together and I hugged him goodbye. However, last night, a part of me couldn’t help but wished he had seen me & came to say hello. :0T Okay, I’m about to get teary-eyed so I’m going to stop here. All I really wanted to say was “Hello Ava circa 2008. So what’s up?”