Archive for December, 2014

From 2014 To 2015

I have to say, 2014 was quite a year. I’m so happy with all the things that happened and I’m looking forward to what 2015 will bring. For the past 4 years, my New Year’s resolution was the same: “I want to meet Will Friedle…and lose weight, blah blah blah.” Now that I finally accomplished that goal, I work on the blah blah blah.

Best Things about 2014:

Co-produced two shows that I am very proud of:
Love Edition: Love Bytes

PCCN (Pilipino Counter Cultural Night)

Got interviewed by SF Bay Guardian

Granny Cart Gangstas in SF Bay Guardian

Made a 90s R&B music video parody, inspired by Xscape’s “Understanding” video

Invited by Ben Savage to catch a closed taping of Girl Meets World
GMW Pass

Hung out with Jason Marsden and his friends after his Locker 13 film premiere at a bar
Jason Marsden

Had the best time filming The Love Edition web series, “Bender/Breaker” (Annotations must be turned on)

Finally got to meet my dream husband, Will Friedle
Will Friedle meets Miss Ava

Completed my first short film, Accident and having Jason Marsden tell me he thought it was “really well done” was icing on the cake

Moved into my own place which means I get to buy my own groceries
Farmer's Market Haul

Finally got my song from my favorite band, Finish Ticket! It took a whole year but you can’t rush creativity. The final result is perfect! I’ve included a clip of it on my site. I recently saw them perform at the legendary Fillmore and they covered Weezer and finally performed one of my favorite songs of theirs, Killing Me!

Yes, 2014 was wonderful but life moves forward and so must I. There are soooo….many things I want to do but take baby steps, I shall. Turn my dreams into goals, I will. Not sure why I’m speaking like Yoda but I felt it necessary.

So for 2015, I have little goals I want to achieve and some bigger goals I want to reach for. I say goals instead of dreams because I find that when you turn your dreams into goals, you are more likely to achieve them. Essentially, the word “dream” almost subliminally tells you that it’s not real, that it’s just a fantasy. However, the word “goal” implies a direction, a motivational force so to speak. With that said, my goals for 2015 include the following:

1. Be more girly – I want to buy more dresses and dress more like a girl and yet still be comfortable, but I don’t want to pull a George Costanza and wear sweatpants all day. I want people to know I will NOT give up!

2. Eat vegetables every day – My friend once told me that when you eat, you’re either fighting disease or feeding it. Yes, she obviously cannot accept my incessant love for my self-made ice cream tours in every city but I see her point and will take it into consideration. Are avocados considered a vegetable? It’s green.

3. Cut your portions and consume less meat – I want to eat like a normal person and eat the portion size they eat. Problem is, my mother put me on a diet when I was 12 and I have been dieting ever since. I haven’t the slightest clue what a normal portion is! America has a problem with portion distortion and I’m wallowing in the thick of it all. I also want to eat less meat and lose some weight. I mean, if Will Friedle can do it, so can I.

4. Cut my hair every 4 months – They say that your hair changes every 7 years. I don’t know how true that is but I’ve always felt like my hair grows too slowly so I never cut it. However, when I finally did cut it 4 months ago, I noticed that my hair has grown a lot faster since then so maybe I will spend that $65 and get that amazing haircut I love and just enjoy seeing it grow.

5. Drink more water – I am guilty of not drinking much water unless I have access to it easily but the adult female body is about 55% water on average and I am going to keep drinking until that 55% reaches 75% and my pee is no longer the slightest bit yellow. That’s how I tell when I’m dehydrated. When your pee looks like Mountain Dew, you’d better go get yourself some Aquafina because chances are, you’re probably dying.

6. Produce at least one show this year, two if I have time – So far, I have two shows I am involved in this year. One is a feature length play and the other is a Women’s show for Women’s History Month. I’m excited about both shows because A) I really love the story of the feature length play and B) I really love the theme of the Women show, which is also going to be a comedy show and the theme I came up with is “No Filter.” What do I mean by that? Well, I just wanna explore, what would it be like if we lived in a world where we didn’t have to be polite to each other? What if you didn’t have to tell your friend that her baby was cute? What if she really does look fat in that outfit? Let’s explore this realm, shall we? I’m still debating on a title.

7. Go to Paris & Prague – Haven’t been to Paris since 2001 and I have never been to Prague. When I get to these countries, I am going to create my own food tour. I wanna eat French sushi, buy Huckleberry jam at Maison du Chocolat, and find me some drinking chocolate. I am not familiar with Prague at all so I’m just going to wing it. Who knows? Maybe I’ll fall in love, but first, I’ll have to fall out of love with Will Friedle and make myself available for love. I only have room in here for one at a time.

8. Pay off one of my student loans – I’m sooooo close to killing of one of them! Back in 2011, my student loans totalled around $40K and today, they are less than $10K. I think that’s pretty awesome. I can’t wait to pay all of it off. And when I do, it will be the same as when I paid off my car. I’m going to celebrate!

9. Take more risks – Life is short, life is a gift, life is supposed to be lived, enjoyed, cherished. I have spent wayyyyy too much time worrying about the negative. Perhaps if I thought more positively, my world would just start to get better and better. Oh who am I kidding, with all these amazing experiences I’ve had the past few years, I’d say I’ve already taken plenty of risks and have been able to accomplish a LOT! Keep it up though, keep it up.

10. Stop condemning my body and start celebrating it – Instead of complaining about what I don’t have, comparing myself to others and feeling bad about myself, I’m going to celebrate the things I do have, the parts I love about myself and all the things my body has allowed me to do. Walking, running, seeing, dancing, exercising, all these things should be celebrated.

I am making a promise to myself to live life as if every day is the last day. Take chances, make changes and enjoy everything life has to offer. All these positive adventures have far outweighed the negative experiences I’ve been through. I am so thankful for it all. This is my last post for 2014. It’s been a wild ride. Be safe, take care, and may 2015 be even better. Good night…

Have Myself A Merry Little Xmas

Christmas is coming up. I barely got through Thanksgiving in one piece. Holidays are hard for me. For a whole two months out of the year, I’m grinding my teeth, counting the days and trying my best to stay low key until it’s over. I haven’t been the same ever since my dad left. And ever since the incident, the relationship between me and my mom never fully recovered. I wander around as a broken person trying to mend itself. While the wound has closed, the scars are still there. Call me emo but is it so wrong to allow the pain to linger and leave marks wherever you go? One of my BFFs said that I have to stop hanging onto the past and thinking of what used to be. She said that I have to let it go and start thinking of new ways to celebrate instead of looking for the old ways that I used to celebrate. I know she’s right, but I sure wish she wasn’t.

I used to get gifts for everyone. I would spend about $2000 every Christmas. And that’s a lot for a high school teenager in 1995. I didn’t even have a job yet. I had so much fun giving presents to people and I didn’t care if they got me anything. I just enjoyed shopping for people because I was happy to make others happy. How do I get back that feeling? How do I retrieve that joy I felt of sharing my happiness? How do I reignite the joy I had in believing I was in a perfect loving family and wanting to share that love? It’s incredible how much can change in 14 years.

Today, I don’t do presents anymore. I just give myself presents and I find immense joy in that. However, they’re not necessarily purchases all the time but more like experiences. For example, this year, I took the opportunity presented to me and went to meet my ultimate favorite guy of all time, Will Friedle. I took a fakecation just to meet him. And as a bonus, someone named “last_beautiful_girl” on IG sent me this awesome video yesterday that captured just a little bit, but the best bit, of my meet & greet with Will (00:07 – 00:20). I wonder what he was thinking at 00:09. He had this weird, possibly disgusted(?) look on his face. Did I smell? Oh well. Thank you for sharing it with me, Last_beautiful_girl! Merry Christmas to all and have yourself a merry little christmas too, Ava…

“Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas” by Laura Weinbach of Foxtails Brigade

Will Friedle Rulz

For anyone who has been following this lonely blog knows I have been wanting to meet Will Friedle for the last 4 years. I went to convention after convention, event after event, reading articles, news, creating google alerts, searching through Twitter trying to find any public appearances he might be at so that I could meet this amazing man. I’m happy to announce that I finally got that chance and it was a better experience than I could have ever hoped for.

I initially had tickets for the following week of when he was going to be taping but somehow, tickets for his taping became available and for some reason, I randomly checked for tickets at the right time and BOOYAH!! I got the golden ticket!! Let me tell you, when I was entering my info, my hands were trembling, my heart was pounding, my head was going numb! It was a pure panic disco going through my body. It was like the SDCC ticket buying experience and if you’ve never gone through that, well then considered yourself not a geek. You have been spared.

Anyway, after obtaining the tickets, I was off. Yes, I admit it, I was packed and ready to go at a moment’s notice. I left right after work and arrived at my friend’s doorstep in the middle of the night. At one point, I thought I wasn’t going to make it there alive due to some dense fog, none I have ever experienced. Just look at my depth of vision!


I know. Fucking scary! I was going 42 MPH in a 70 MPH zone. I was so afraid of hitting an animal. I had a conversation with God and I said, “Wait! Don’t let me die! I haven’t met Will Friedle yet! I earned this, man!” So thankful to have gotten out of there alive. Anyway, I barely slept. I slept maybe 4-5 hours. My friend and I got breakfast, got ice cream (our favorite pastime) and got in line around 1:30 pm. Having to stand there for another 2.5 hours was going to be agony but this ain’t my first rodeo so I knew what to expect. Around 3:30 pm, they finally started checking us in. We got inside the studio around 4 pm and they showed us the “Home For The Holidays” episode with Rider Strong, Cory’s parents and his brother Josh. That was a great episode. I wish I could have seen that taping. Rider is a really nice guy.

So after showing the episode, Michael Jacobs started introducing all the principal cast members for today’s episode. Michael said that he got a call from this gentleman after Season 1 had finished taping and he said, “I’m ready.” Of course, that gentleman, the last person to be introduced was Will Friedle and I kid you not, the crowd erupted. We stood up and screamed and yelled, I was cheering like I won the lottery! Even after the applause and they were preparing to begin taping, all the people around me, including me, were trembling. I think I speak for them as well when I say that I could not believe I just saw the elusive Will Fuckin’ Friedle in the flesh. All the chatter amongst ourselves mainly contained stage whispered words such as “OMG,” “ERIC!”, “I’m freaking out!”, and “I can’t believe that just happened!!” At this point, if a tornado hit us and we all died, I would have died happy. Seeing him there in the same room with me was already so grand. I have this theory that when they first began taping Season 1, maybe Will felt a little self-conscious about appearing on the show. I think he was a little chubbier than he used to be so maybe he didn’t want to appear that way for his first GMW guest spot. I think he spent this whole time cleaning himself up, working out and turning back time just for us, just to look exactly the way he did back in 2000. Personally, I wouldn’t have cared but I am a self-conscious person as well so I completely understand.

Then the taping began and OMG, if you’ve only HEARD the stories about Will being funny, you don’t know the level of hilarity this guy can hit. Seeing him work, he was so impressive. His comedic choices in every take floored me, even in the little pick ups they did were just hilarious from take to take. I watched every Will scene with my jaw dropped. I felt so lucky, incredibly lucky to have witnessed his talent in action. It was beyond what I could possibly ever imagine. He really should return to onscreen acting, or at least some type of comedy route. I can see him in the Hangover movie, haha! OH! And that left eyebrow of his. Drives me nuts!! I love how he can raise it independently of the other. I’ve practiced doing that. I think I got it down but I can’t quite get it as high as he can.

Oh, I’ve lost track. So as I was saying, the taping was amazing and I can’t wait for Boy Meets World fans to see this episode. I did notice some continuity issues and I wanted to shout out to Will and say “You used your left hand in the wide shot!” during the pick up shots but I’m not in charge of continuity so they’ll have to leave it up to the editors. I know there are haters out there who watched one episode and compare it to the whole Boy Meets World series and say that it can’t compare and I laugh in their faces. They obviously don’t remember how similarly ridiculous Boy Meets World was when it first started. Will wasn’t even funny, he was normal. Boring normal. They aren’t even giving the show a chance to grow and all they can do is be negative and grumble about it being on the Disney Channel. Well I think that’s BULLSHIT! If you’re going to be some judgmental asshole who thinks Girl Meets World should start to tackle serious issues from the very beginning, then you are an idiot. I wouldn’t want you as a fellow fan. It’s a sitcom, as in situational comedy. It’s not a soap opera or a PSA. I’ve watched every Girl Meets World episode so far and yes, there are hits & misses but Boy Meets World, believe it or not, had hits & misses too! Your adamant attachment of Boy Meets World to your childhood is causing you to become narrow-minded and dismissive about the inevitable evolution of Girl Meets World which you will never see until it’s too late to chime in. It’s a baby right now, don’t kill it just because it’s not acting like its big brother from the get go. Let it grow.

Whoa, so…I digress. The point of my post got away from me there. So near the end of the taping, the host asked if we would like to meet the cast. Well duh. Yes, yes, YES!! Of course we did! He said he would try to arrange that and he split our group in half and told us to line up in a single file in the aisle and we can meet them. I didn’t trust that at all because there were only a few of them and there were like 200 of us. How is this possible? Regardless, my friend and I got in the messy line but the line would not move and all eyes were on Will. I can hear the people talking behind me, complaining that the line wasn’t moving and Will wasn’t greeting anyone. However, once Will started moving towards the audience and people in the front began asking him for pics, the complaints got even louder because Will was on the other side from us. After patiently waiting in the line and not being able to really go up or down the aisle, I finally told myself, “Ava, you can’t wait around for things to be handed to you. If you want something, you’re gonna have to go and get it.” I went around to the edge of the line, hopped over to the middle, climbed down the chairs and landed right in front of Will. When he became available, I asked him for a photo and I got to take a selfie with him!

Will Friedle meets Miss Ava

I was so excited and happy that I finally got to meet him after all this time, after all those moments when I felt like it was hopeless and it might never happen. It was amazing. He asked me what my name was and I said, “Ava.” Then he said, “Ava? You’re not the one who blogs about me, are you?” STOP. RIGHT. THERE. OMFGWHAT?


Somehow, I manage to reply and say yes and he gave me the biggest hug! I felt like I was hugging an old friend I hadn’t seen in a long time; Or a long lost cousin I never knew about who hit me up on Facebook; Or a long distance boyfriend that I truly missed and couldn’t wait to take home and bang. Okay, maybe more like the latter. I mean, I literally wanted to cry though. I don’t really know how to explain it but something about when a celebrity you wholly and completely admire recognizes you or acknowledges you somehow, it makes you feel exceedingly grateful and thrilled. It’s kind of like when I first met Rider Strong which was at the Sonoma Film Festival in 2011 and he told me I was the most supportive tweeter he knew for their film, “The Dungeon Master” which by the way, is AWESOME. Or like when Ben Savage saw a tweet I wrote and invited me to see a closed taping of Girl Meets Friendship out of nowhere. Or like the time Jason Marsden was so sweet to invite me to his Locker 13 film premiere earlier this year and I totally went! I really enjoyed that film. While those experiences were all amazing, nothing could beat the mixture of shock, astonishment, gratitude and euphoria I felt when Will asked me that question. Will said I didn’t have to go to all those conventions but I’m still glad I went. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have had all those other experiences with the other BMW cast members I got to meet.


Top Three Moments from that taping:
3. When we overheard Will say to Ben, “I miss you, man.”
2. Hearing the Feeny Call in person
1. Hugging Will Friedle

If I’m able to catch his next taping, I have just the thing for him to sign. I’m not an autograph person but having him sign this would be hilarious. Hopefully he announces when his next taping will be. In afterthought, I felt super embarrassed because I have written some pretty questionable blogs about him that I didn’t think he would ever see but maybe he did, I don’t know. Oh gawd, why did I write that? Anyway, we exchanged a few more words which I shall keep private but this experience was most definitely the best one I’ve ever had, even better than New Kids. #sorrynotsorry I can die happy now. Thank you, Will Friedle! I love you. I loved you then, I love you now. I love you scruffy. I love you clean. I love you fat. I love you skinny. I love you unconditionally. Feel free to DM me.

Sidenote: You know what’s hella weird though? Will was wearing a black & blue plaid shirt, just like he wore in my “Last Night” dream. Weird, right??!!

So Close!

Ugh, Will Friedle announced that they will be taping his episode on Tuesday. Unfortunately, the tickets I chose were for the following week. :’0( I know, I am devastated. After going to so many events and trying to meet him, I’m just at the point where I’m thinking maybe it’s just not meant to be. It’s not like I haven’t tried. I went to so many events such as Wondercon, Comic Con, ATX, I went to events of other BMW alum as well and I was able to meet all of them. All except Will. It’s a sign. I shall beg the GMW people to let me switch my tickets but knowing my luck, I’ll end up getting banned from the tapings. Well, at least I’ll always have that one experience of going to the closed taping when Ben invited me. I don’t think anything could top that.

I watched the episode, “Girl Meets Home For The Holidays” last night. I don’t know about you but I felt like I was transported back to 2000 and Boy Meets World never went off the air. Except, it’s just a little more colorful this time around (no pastels). They said things that made me say “That’s exactly what I was thinking!” like when Shawn looked at Riley and said “You’re Cory with Topanga’s hair!” That was so awesome. And the hug. The HUG! The Shawn & Cory hug. I wouldn’t have expected anything less than the tight squeeze they gave each other.

I read somewhere that people were confused about the bay window conversation between Maya and Shawn when they were talking about how they were growing up. Since I watched the taping for the next Shawn episode, I knew exactly what they were implying but I wonder what I would be thinking if I hadn’t. Although, it’s not that hard to figure out. Riley’s beautiful heart is an open book and she has only good intentions for everyone, especially for her BFF. Trust me, if you DVR’d this episode, save it. When Shawn comes back, return to this episode and you will understand it completely.

Ugh, I so wish I could have been at the taping of that episode. I wonder if the audience went nuts. I’m sure they did. I wonder if there were any uncontrolled outbursts of “I love you, Shawn!” exploding in the air or existing beneath tearful whispers of 30-somethings who will treasure this experience forever. I’m so happy Rider came back. I read somewhere that he had issues with the show and when he got to direct an episode, he was finally at peace with it. Rider is a really nice guy and when I first met him, never in a million years would I have thought I would ever see him back onscreen. I thought directing was his big thing now with Strong Brothers Magic Show. They have inspired me so much that I even made my very first short film, Accident. They were so down-to-earth and I really like it when celebrities are not assholes. We are all human beings and we all deserve a little respect and he gave me that. I appreciate him.

Anyway, not sure how much longer I can continue trying to meet Will. If I put this much energy into finding a job I love, I’d be in such a better company by now. Oooh, epiphany! Switch your priorities, Miss Ava! :0P