Archive for May, 2015

I Love Music Hard

Did you ever watch the movie, Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist starring Michael Cera and Kat Dennings? I love that movie. It’s my favorite movie of all time, for some reason. I think it had something to do with my love for independent music and how the whole film is centered around the world of independent music. Consequently, this movie is how I fell in love with my favorite band, Finish Ticket. I’ve even gone as far as New York to see them perform as a 20-minute opening act! That’s how much I love their music. What’s also wonderful is that these guys are as humble and down-to-earth as you can get and that is especially important in order to keep a loyal fan base. There are a ton of celebrities that can learn from that.

Anyway, the reason I mentioned that movie is because I feel like I’ve come full circle for the 2nd time (I’ll explain later) because my favorite band played a secret show just like Where’s Fluffy in the movie! I mean, of course it wasn’t quite as elaborate(or arrogant) as Where’s Fluffy but still, it was a secret show meaning they had performed under a different band name and you would have only heard about the show if you were on their mailing list or had bought tickets for their Ugly Sweater Social last year. By the way, what was really funny was that they asked me if I was over 21 and I said yes but they didn’t believe me so they drew Xs on my hands!11050706_10153276110285056_5364935601200905196_n 
This meant that I wasn’t allowed to buy any alcohol. I was shocked considering I’m 38. Must be all that coconut oil I’ve been eating. Incidentally, what an amazing show it was! I also love going to their shows because I always end up discovering some really awesome bands I had never known before if it wasn’t for them, which is the same exact way I discovered them, when they opened for Jackson Rathbone’s now-defunct band, 100 Monkeys back in 2011.

One of the bands I ended up loving immediately was Frankie. They opened for Finish Ticket and I loved them 10 seconds into their first song. So good. Here is one of their songs, New Obsession.

That was amazing, right? I dunno. I love quirky music. Matches my personality I guess.

So, I mentioned that this was the 2nd time things came full circle for me. The first time was when I went to dinner with two of my BFFs. They chose the restaurant. When we came out, I noticed a venue next door called The New Parish and I said, “Oh hey! The New Parish! That’s the venue that Finish Ticket performed at but I couldn’t make it.” I walked up to the window and peeked inside to see what it looked like and as I stepped back, I noticed a show poster for another venue and one of the bands performing was Army Navy! Army Navy is the name of the band of my favorite song on the Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist soundtrack, “Silvery Sleds” and I fell in love with Finish Ticket’s music because they reminded me of Army Navy! And incidentally, the venue that the secret show was at was at the same exact venue Army Navy performed at! Oh man, this is blowing my mind. I love it when serendipitous things like this happens. Here is that song. Check it out.

I realize they don’t sound like Finish Ticket vocal-wise but their catchy music is what caught my attention. Here are a couple of other bands that have opened for them that I absolutely love.

Night Riots “Remedy”

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Squirtle Pond

Okay, so the last one was a bit tricky. :0D Damn. I love music hard. Hella hard.

Girl Meets World Premiere Week!!

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This whole week has been wonderful. I feel like I got to revisit the year 2000. Those were some good times. I was 23 years old, discovering myself, and I took with me all the life lessons Mr. Feeny had taught me and ventured into life with my most fiercest face forward. Being able to see a favorite childhood character get revived is a very special feeling that cannot be replaced. I got that same feeling with NKOTB reunited in 2008.

Just for fun, I jotted down my thoughts right after each episode of GMW Premiere Week and decided to share. Here we go.

Girl Meets Gravity
I was a bit surprised that they went right into the topic of death so early! However, it was a light character so it didn’t hit too hard but still, it got me to feel sorrow, especially when they had that scene in the end where Cory calls Mr. Feeny. Ooooohhhh, I think that really hit deep and got the episode’s lesson ingrained into the audience. I can tell there will be a sense of growth in the show from all the characters. Oh! And the 4th wall! Breaking it is always fun. I can’t wait to see tomorrow’s episode.

Girl Meets The New World
I remember Michael Jacobs once saying that if the audience doesn’t end up caring about what happens to the characters, then they did not do their job. I have to admit, I only really looked forward to the episodes where the old BMW characters would visit and I only really watched the rest of the episodes in order to keep up. There were hits and misses but after watching this episode, I would say that I finally do care about the GMW characters now. They did a fantastic job of capturing the awkwardness of Riley and Lucas’ forced relationship. I feel like Lucas looks a bit old to be in this class though. He needs to stop working out cuz he’s starting to look like a high school senior. Anyway, I loved the scene where Lucas asked Riley about sports and she was like no at first and the way Lucas responded made it seem improvised. I didn’t even feel like he was acting at that moment, it seemed like a real conversation. It was so cute when Riley exposed her hardcore Knicks love and Lucas was so impressed. This was a terrific episode showcasing how you don’t have to be something you’re not just because people expect you to be. I wish I had learned that lesson a long time ago.

Girl Meets The Secret Of Life
I really really loved this episode…and it didn’t even have any Boy Meets World characters in it! This is so great. Finally, I am watching this show and feeling like it is starting to get that Boy Meets World feel that was somewhat missing in Season 1. My favorite scene was the car wash part where Lucas has a bucket over his head and Riley says something along the lines of “You are the first boy I’ve ever liked and that is a big deal. You have to tell me if you’re worth it. ARE YOU WORTH IT?!” And he finally responds under the bucket “Yes.” That was effin beautiful. A guy telling a girl he is worthy of her love. That scene had many layers to me. That Zay guy, I dunno about him. He’s a bit annoying. There seems to be a bigger agenda for his role so I guess we’ll wait and see. Opps! And it’s like they were reading my mind cuz they addressed why Lucas looks so much older than everyone! Ahhh, okay. He’s a year older.

Girl Meets Pluto
Mr. Feeny!!! I can’t believe he’s still around. He’s 88!! He’s like everyone’s favorite grandpa. It would have been nice if the kids got a taste of what Feeny was like to Cory by having them interact more. The part where Riley and Maya did the Feeny Call did not really sit well with me though. Umm, nobody does the Feeny Call except Will Friedle. Everybody knows that so I really don’t understand why that happened. I noticed that Ben and Danielle kind of act a little bit different whenever Rider is on set. They seem less campy and more natural like in Boy Meets World. I mean, there is still a little bit of campiness and I could totally be imagining it but I feel like Ben brings out a different version of Cory when Rider’s in the house. He’s Cory circa 1995, not circa 2015. He’s dorky like 1995 Cory and not zany like 2015 Cory. Why is that?

Girl Meets Mr Squirrels
Omg, I melted. I’ve been vocally anticipating his return to onscreen acting for the last 5 years. And I suspected that whenever he did return, he was going to nail it the way he did back in the day. And he delivered. Boy did he deliver. I mean, I know I saw it already back in December but seeing it all come together and reading tweets that people were saying and trending #GirlMeetsMrSquirrels/#ProudOfWill just made it 10 times more enjoyable. #ProudOfWill is a hashtag that this tweeter named @JonaAlmostFame created to show Will how proud we are of him for coming back onscreen in spite of his anxiety attacks. I thought it was a great idea because Will could see how much we all missed him and love him.

I don’t know how he does it. It’s like no matter how ridiculous Will’s choices are for Eric, we’re sold. We’re on board, we’re convinced, we believe everything. There’s no doubt in our minds. How is this possible? Oh because Will’s amazing and everybody effin knows it. I’m glad Will got to see all the love he was getting on Twitter. He deserves it and he should know it. I wonder what kind of tweets he would be getting if Twitter existed back in the 90s. My favorite part got cut though, sad to say. They did like 7 takes on this scene in the hallway. It was a pick up shot of Will echoing what Lucas was saying. I think Will says to Cory something like “Do you think it’s easy being me?” and he does this hair flip thing which I feel like he had done in Boy Meets World but I can’t remember which episode. And then Cory responds with “Shut up” I think. And I remember every take they did, Will did something different and it was hilarious! I had wondered which take they were going to choose but the whole scene was cut. Aw well, that’s ok. The editors had their reasons. I saw that they kept the take with the continuity issue that I noticed at the taping but whatever. I’m probably the only one who noticed. Will made this episode so funny and I relished in all the references made to Plays With Squirrels. He slipped right back where he left off, not missing even one beat. That’s Talent. I can’t wait to see what he does in his other episodes.

I wore my Plays With Squirrels shirt to celebrate the day. Ooh, it fits a little looser now. Thanks Will. ;0)
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Every time Will ends up on my Yahoo feed, I smile…and take a picture. I know, I’ve got problems. It’s called archiving! :0D
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Watched the show at my friend’s house. Plays With Squirrels is kinda hot, don’t you think? Lookin like a sexy Jesus. Go on, babe. Yeah, you rock that big stick. Mmm hmmm…
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I don’t know what it is about that independently raised left eyebrow. I find it incredibly hot. I just wanna trace it with my finger and kiss it. *shivers*
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I love seeing these guys together. Did you know that if they hug each other, all things will be right in all the world? Yeah, it’s true.
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You know, that is the exact same shirt he was wearing Last Night. WEIRD!!!
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Will’s Living The Dream

Thursday, Will tweeted an interview he did with Phil Morris. It’s about an hour long so if you have time, check it out. Honestly, it could be 10 hours long and I still would have listened to his sexy ass voice. Real talk.

They discussed many topics including how he got into acting, into Boy Meets World, how fate stepped in to have him play Eric Matthews, his family life, direction of today’s television, the type of actor he defines himself as, an absolutely crazy story about Jeff Sherman witnessing a woman die, his work ethics and his anxiety attacks. Plus some other topics that were all very very engaging to me.

Before I get into the part that got me all teary-eyed, the guy Will is talking about who was supposed to play Eric Matthews is Harry Barandes. They kind of look alike but Will was clearly the right choice.
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There were many topics discussed in the podcast but there were some parts that really spoke to me and I wanted to talk about them here. Will told a story about his friend, BMW writer Jeff Sherman and his wife, comedian Wendy Liebman, leaving Will’s house at a later hour than they normally would, missing a freeway entrance that they normally should have taken, and getting into a lane that he just felt like getting into that night and witnessing the car that got into the lane he was just in get plowed into by a drunk driver going 90 mph. He was JUST in that lane. Just writing this gave me chills. It made me think about how God is in charge of everything. When it’s your time, it’s your time. And it just wasn’t Jeff and Wendy’s time. I know it’s just a fictitious movie but it reminds me of the collision scene in “The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.”

Honestly, I believe we’re just here on this planet to experience existentialism in human form, to take care of the planet, and reach our highest potential as human beings before passing into the next phase of life. Everything happens for a reason and everything I’ve ever experienced was meant to be this way. Even when we try to change it, it’s not that we’re fighting fate. I think we’re meant to fight because all the events leading up to this feeling created your emotions to react this way. It’s kind of like how I always envisioned myself getting married in my 20s but if that had happened, I might not have been able to experience all the wonderful things I got to do in my 30s. Jeff and Wendy still had unfinished business to fulfill in this life that caused them to be able to avoid that crash the way that they did and it blows my mind how easily we are reminded every day that life is short, precious and not to be taken for granted. You can read about the crash here and what Jeff wrote that fateful night here. Warning: it WILL give you chills and goosebumps. Don’t drink, get high or text and drive. Like Jeff says, “When you’re driving, just drive.”

I would love to talk about all the other amazing topics that Will and Phil covered but the part that got me all teary-eyed was when Will revealed a most personal and private experience. He stated that during the filming of “H-E-Double Hockey Sticks,” he experienced what he now knows was an anxiety attack. He said that he got on medication for it and that was why he gained weight during Boy Meets World. My heart dropped when he told this story. It hurt me to know he was suffering through these attacks while we were obliviously hanging back enjoying watching him on BMW. I don’t know if I can ever watch those later BMW seasons in the same way. I feel guilty now about all those times I was laughing my ass off at his performance knowing that underneath the facade, he was enduring this medical disorder and just putting on a brave face for us.

I know, I know, he’s not the first celebrity to persevere through something like this and he won’t be the last. In fact, another celebrity I love went through the same exact thing: Jonathan Knight. Yes, I am a bonafide New Kids On The Block fan and I heard all about Jon’s panic attacks, consequently leading him to quit the boy band back in 1994. He talked a little bit about it on Oprah back in 2001…


As you can see, it was heartbreaking to watch Jon physically struggling to get through the show. I never went to any concerts back then but I can’t imagine what it must have felt like spending 5 years performing in front of thousands of people while having this debilitating feeling inside. On the second clip, they briefly mentioned about the attacks feeling like you’re being judged by everyone because your physical state is unknown to everyone watching you and wondering why you’re acting this way. Jordan also talked about having performance anxiety and a light went on in my head. I did a little internet digging and found that performance anxiety was commonly known as stage fright, which is what I feel right before the moment I’m supposed to step out onstage in front of a live audience every time. However, I dismissed it because I thought everyone goes through this but now that I think about it, my fellow cast mates never did look as nervous as I did.

Back in March, my comedy troupe, Granny Cart Gangstas, did a live sketch comedy show and I was in 6 out of the 18 live skits we were doing which was one of the heaviest loads out of the entire troupe. In one of the pieces, it was just me and a mic and since I was alone out there, it made me the most nervous. Albeit, I was discussing my favorite subject of all, Will Friedle, it didn’t make me any less vomity or shaky but I had to put on my game face. I’m not sure if my nervousness came through in my performances. During all the rehearsals, I was fine but when it came to hell week, if we had even just one person in the audience, I freaked. My mind became blocked, my lines got lost and my body began to shake. I would get drymouth and would have to rush to the green room to grab water so that I could speak. In the first few times we did the show, I literally had to down some alcohol right before I went on in order to calm myself. Yes, it is unprofessional but it wasn’t the way I WANTED to go out there, it was the only way I COULD. Nothing heavy, I wasn’t downing Hennessy or anything, just a few sips of Moscato. It gave me a slight numbing feeling and that actually really helped. I eventually got comfortable enough to the point where I didn’t have to drink before I went on but it’s always that first show when I didn’t know how the audience would receive me that made me want to vomit and bail.

Hearing Will talk about the extreme attacks he went through made me feel like my suffering was minuscule & trivial compared to his. Environmental stress is a trigger for these types of attacks. For me, my self-esteem and self-confidence gets affected and thoughts of how others may be negatively judging me will run through my mind and make me feel like running away and canceling. The only thing I can kind of compare it to is that feeling you get when you’re at the top of the first climb on a roller coaster and you are half a second away from the drop and there’s nothing you can do about it. There’s a saying that goes, “What other people think of you is none of your business.” True that it may be, my mind will still create other people’s thoughts for me and about me and that is what affects me. Even though I was crazy happy with the words coming out of my mouth and I knew people will love it, a part of me created mental doubts and it consumed me and I had no idea this was not normal.

There are millions of people in the world who suffer from anxiety disorders and some don’t even recognize what they have. Seeing Will go through it and coming out of it on top showed others who suffered from similar disorders that they can get through it. There is a role model you can look up to and follow by example. Will also mentioned that when he finally decided to come back to onscreen acting through Girl Meets World, the audience gave him a standing ovation and it made him realize that he CAN do this. I’m so happy to have been a part of that standing ovation. I still remember that moment after his introduction when he came out from backstage and we erupted. We completely lost it. Ironically, he was creating panic attacks throughout the whole audience and I bet he had no idea. I thought some people were going to faint. When they were about to start, it would have been useful to have a sign.
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Lol! Good times. Anyway, I’m really happy to see Will thriving like this and he gets to see all the wonderful reactions from his fans about the work he is doing now that he’s on social media. We should all treasure these days. I don’t think he will be on social media forever so I say make the most of it while he’s here. To see him face the one fear he had that kept him from doing what he loved revealed that he is imperfect just like the rest of us but that he is also resilient, setting an example for all of us. And by the way, this man supports charitable causes like Breastcar.com. Ugh! I take it back. He’s perfect. Will’s actions bring forth his strength, courage, perseverance and heroism. I’ll always love you, Will.