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Dream Guy-It Was Just A Dream

(transcribed from an old diary I found, circa 1997-20 years old)

My Dream Guy

1. Honest
2. Sincere
3. Romantic
4. Someone who calls when he says he will
5. Someone who writes me letters just to say hello
6. Someone who calls just to tell me he’s thinking about me
7. Someone who remembers important dates with me
8. Brings me flower for no reason
9. Slow dances with me whenever & wherever it may be
10. Tells me I mean the world to him
11. Someone I can learn to love with
12. Someone I can share experiences with
13. Tells me things about him that he would never tell anyone else
14. Somoeone who makes me feel good about myself
15. Someone I can sleep with, as in just sleep
16. Be the first one I tell my joys & sorrows to
17. Gives me a reason to wake up in the morning
18. Tells me he loves me and truthfully means it
19. Squeezes my hand a little tighter when we hear our song play
20. Tells me he misses me when I’m not around
21. Pay attention to me when I’m speaking & remembers what I said
22. Lends me his jacket when I’m cold

After reading this, all I have to say is…


My Dream Guy (circa 2011-34 years old)

1. Smart
2. Creative
3. Ambitious
4. Has a big heart
5. Doesn’t need to talk to me everyday
6. Inspiring
7. Drama-free
8. Doesn’t expect me to cook dinner every night
9. Has good hygiene (clean teeth,doesn’t smoke,showers daily, etc.)
10. Loves trying new restaurants with me
11. Supportive

That’s all. Wow, slashed the list in half. Doesn’t take much to make me happy anymore. If I were to pick one from my 1997 list, it would have to be #11-some I can learn to love with. I think relationships are a growing process, never something set in stone. When I wrote that 1997 list, I must have been in lalaland. Back then, love was all a dream, somewhat of a treasure to behold. After going through years without it and seeing relationships around me fall apart, can’t say I’m all that enthralled by it anymore. I don’t even care if I ever fall in love again. If anyone can change my mind, well then I’ll be damned.

Celebrities who seem like the type of guy I would want to go out with (granted they were single & around my age):

1. Will Friedle
2. Paulo Costanzo
3. Topher Grace
4. Michael Cera
5. Dave Foley
6. Jason Bateman
7. Andrew McCarthy

Cute, but not for me:
1. Jensen Ackles
2. Jackson Rathbone
3. Bradley Cooper
4. Orlando Bloom
5. Keanu Reeves
6. Sam Worthington

Fighting Back

*As I type this, the words in my head are in a British accent as I watched Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snogging last night. I guess it stuck just a little.

My aunt called me last night and invited me to dinner. I was excited to be able to have a nice meal with some family. It’s a bit of of a return to normalcy as some might say. I haven’t had that since Chinese New Year where my favorite cousin came into town to have lunch with all of us. It was quite an awkward experience considering I wasn’t speaking to my mum nor my grandmum.

We decided to go to ABC Cafe out in San Mateo. I ordered Curry Beef Brisket Chow Fun, something I had never heard of. I just love trying new foods. It was allright, but it wasn’t something I would try again, that’s for sure. Didn’t impress me much really. I would much have preferred a simple ham & egg sandwich over this dish actually.

Anyway, as we waited for our food, my aunt ambushed me. It felt like a trap! She wanted me to get together with my brothers and have a bit of an intervention with my mum over the shower incident. She said that her business partner and her are in an unhealthy relationship where he is constantly abusing my mother both emotionally & verbally. He tells everyone that he is the one earning the money when it’s my mum’s money that he is using; her social security, mind you. And when he runs out of cash, he yells at her for spending all of his money when he doesn’t have any in the first place! He’s basically treating her like an ATM! I can’t stand to hear news like this. As angry as I am with her, it doesn’t supercede the love I still have for her. She’s my mother, and I have to be there to help her even if she did choose that wretched, conniving sorry excuse for a man over me.

I want her leave him. I’ve always wanted her to leave his arse. He doesn’t deserve to have someone like my mother in his life. Unfortunately, my mother is such a weak soul. I am much stronger than she’ll ever be. I think the only way to get through to her is to empower her. My aunt thinks the only way to get through to her is to gang up on her and force her to leave him. What kind of strategy is that? This isn’t a sport, my dear auntie. This is real life. I just think we have to approach things a bit more delicately, a bit more tactful.

Just talking about it last night made my blood boil. All these violent thoughts roamed my mind and I wanted to commit a heinous crime against him, not that I really will. I’m angry but I’m not insane. I just don’t like anyone taking advantage of my family like that and I certainly won’t be allowing it to continue any longer. Something has to be done and it begins with me.

By the way, I had asked my aunt about the eviction and her reply was that I needn’t worry about it because that’s just procedure, and that my uncle is taking care of it…I don’t know what to believe anymore.