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Will Friedle Got Married!

Holy muthafuckin shit, Will got married last Sunday! I’m soooo incredibly happy for him! Yes, I know, I know, people thought I would be sad. I literally received texts from friends asking me if I’m okay, lol! Dude, of course I am. Yes, I loved Will in almost every sense of the word so of course I want him to be happy! I can only wish him and Sue the best for their years to come. It’s so wonderful to see him so in love. I’m sure hearts broke all over the BMW fan world on Sunday but this is a great thing for them. I wonder if he will have babies. He’d make the best dad since he seems like a big kid himself. I know people like him and they are wonderful people who can relate to people of all ages. Congratulations, Will & Sue! May your new life together be the happiest it will ever be, full of love, laughter, tears and joy. Grow together, learn together, and love together.

Here is the photo Will tweeted.

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I have to admit, their eyebrow pic looks wayyyy better than mine, lol!
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But I’ll always love my favorite photo with Will, the first time we met.
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Thankful For You

Blogging to this song on repeat…

This Thanksgiving, my mom, my grandmother and my aunt, the three matriarchs of the family have again left before the holidays to go to Hong Kong like they did last year. I understand the tickets are cheaper, but I just wish they would at least prepare me instead of letting me know an hour before they are leaving for the airport through a random voicemail. The holidays have always been difficult for me because I haven’t yet been able to let go of the past. Feeling disappointed by both parents has brought me to the conclusion that holidays, family time, and love are for suckers. I really miss the big parties my parents used to throw when they were together. I think I took it for granted. I used to complain about the loud karaoke all the adults were singing in a language I didn’t quite comprehend at a reasonable level. I’m more conversational Cantonese. Every year around the holidays, I yearn for those days when we were together as a family. In my fantasy world, my father never cheated on my mother, he never left our family, and my mother never took the guy’s side when I was violated. Of course fantasies only belong in movies and books. In real life, my fantasies turn themselves inside out and claim their stake in my heart in the form of a hard truth. And so every year around the holidays, I try to find some kind of distraction that will keep me smiling.

This year, I got the chance to see my favorite guy in the whole wide world, Will Friedle. Fortunately, the chance came before the holidays began so I was happy to have him as my distraction. I really needed him and he has no idea how much our interaction truly means to me. Whenever my mind begins to wander into the past, I can feel the tears start to fall and I have to remind myself all the wonderful experiences I’ve had this year. I am very thankful for many things that have happened this year and of course, the most recent, seeing Will was the cherry on top. Now I can have a pleasant experience to think back on to make me smile. I would have to say out of the three experiences I have had with Will, this one was the best. I mean, well, of course the first one was superb since it was a moment I had waited so long for. And the second one was amazing because I didn’t think he would recognize me but he did. But this time, I actually got to talk to him without someone else rushing me out of a line. I wasn’t on a time limit and that was my favorite part, talking to him like a regular human being. I was a bit nervous at first but I eventually got over it and began to be myself and enjoy being there with him. My friend captured the whole thing on video. I love being able to look back on it and relive the experience. If you see this Will, I just wanted to say thank you. You are one of my favorite people too and I am extremely thankful for you. No words can express how much I absolutely adore you.

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Got to take the eyebrow pic with him, something I’ve been wanting to do for awhile!
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Two Cool Weekends

It was such a great experience last weekend to have my first short film, “Accident,” showcased at APAture 2015! APAture is a multidisciplinary arts festival that focuses on Asian artists in film, comics, music, literary arts, This was actually the first event that I submitted to last year but I didn’t get in back then. My friend encouraged me to resubmit for this year and I’m really glad it got in this year. I’ve been submitting it since July 2014 and even up until now. It has been accepted into three festivals so far, including APAture. At first I was kind of bummed out that a lot of festivals did not accept it. However, I sent a message to Jason Marsden during the whole process and he reassured me that there is nothing wrong with that and to let it be a learning experience. I’ve really taken that to heart and I’m actually really happy now that it was accepted into APAture 2015. I feel like I’ve come full circle. I started with this festival so maybe I can end with this festival. No more submissions. They are costly and I’d really rather move on to my next project. Eventually, I will post my short film online and let the world judge it all they want. I love it and my opinion is the only one that really matters, right?

I did a Q&A afterwards…ok, I admit it. I HATE public speaking. Not that I don’t want to talk to people who saw my film. I’d LOVE to hear what they thought of it but being asked all these questions and being among my peers, I felt inferior, like I didn’t really belong there. People laughed at my answers. Maybe because of my delivery but I can’t help it. I hear it in my head and it comes out of my mouth differently than how I would have liked. It’s fine, I’m not mad. I don’t know how celebrities, teachers, politicians, etc. do it. Aren’t they afraid of saying something wrong? Or sounding like an idiot? Or being asked a question they don’t want to answer? I remember for the time before the screening and after I found out I had to do a Q&A, I told myself I wasn’t going to reveal the true inspiration for my film because I didn’t want people to think I was crazy or angry. Then I thought, well what are the chances they would ask that question anyway? It’s played out. Sure enough, the first question was “What was your inspiration for your respective film?” Oh man. In my head, I reached for everything I could think of to make up. I wanted to scroll through my phone and find my director’s statement so I could remind myself what I wrote. Then I thought of something I say instead of the truth, that I was inspired by my peers because they have been so supportive of my creative work. So when it was my turn to speak, the truth just rolled off my tongue. “I had an angry conversation with my dad on the phone one day and well, if you can’t do it in real life, you do it on film.” Please don’t think I’m crazy. Here’s a picture.

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I just realized I’m not crazy. Just angry. Like Taylor Swift, writing about her ex-boyfriends and telling the world how she really feels. I guess the truth isn’t so bad. Ok, I’m rambling. Other eventful occurrences yesterday: Girl Meets Texas was a 3 part series this weekend. Damn, that’s good marketing! You know people like to binge on this kind of stuff. This love triangle thing is really suspenseful. I have to say I’m pretty blown away by how the producers have handled this situation. I know social media has given some insight as to which direction the GMW fans want it to go. It’s basically Rucas vs Lucaya. For anyone who doesn’t know, “Rucas” is the moniker for the highly anticipated Riley & Lucas union while “Lucaya” is the moniker for those who are team Maya & Lucas. The writers have been giving hints as to what might happen. They said the biggest clue was in the pilot. So, I went to Netflix and watched the pilot. Well, I started to anyway. Then I thought, maybe the clue is in the first conversation Maya had with Lucas where she compressed their whole faux relationship/breakup into 9 sentences. She said “You don’t pay enough attention to me” as one of those sentences. Well, from what I gather in Girl Meets Texas, I feel like while Lucas does pay attention to Maya, he pays more attention to Riley overall. So maybe everything is being played out in this arc, expanding on those 9 sentences throughout the season. That’s my theory and I’m sticking to it. For now. :0)

If you’re wondering which pair I’m in favor of(I refuse to use the word “ship”), I would have to say Lucas and Riley. After watching this 3-part melodrama, I feel like Riley and Lucas have been taking things slow. So slow, in fact, that no one even realized they were doing this. It’s like a silent “I like you, you like me but let’s be great friends first” kind of thing. I know some fans think Maya has more chemistry with Lucas but it just doesn’t seem like Lucas feels that way about Maya. I mean, he stopped himself from kissing Maya. If you had that chance with someone you liked, you go for it. If it doesn’t feel right, you shouldn’t lead someone on. And if they did kiss, that would be horrible. Maya and Riley’s friendship could change forever. Just because Maya thinks Riley loves Lucas like a brother doesn’t mean it’s actually true. Riley is obviously stepping back because she wants Maya to be happy and always puts others before herself. And judging from the dumbfounded & confused way Lucas reacted when Riley told him he was like a brother to her, he obviously thought they had a mutual crush thing going! I mean, come on…ok, I am way too invested in this. What’s going on?? I’m 38! Moving on…

Oh my gosh, I got to see my favorite band perform last night when they opened for Twenty One Pilots! They killed it!! I had such a great time watching them jam out on this big stage. They have always been meant for the bigger stages. I love it! And I especially enjoyed watching them perform their new songs! I’m just adding to my playlist. I guess i could have stayed to watch the other opening act, Echosmith and the headliner but I was starving and needed to feed so I bounced.

When I got home, I started uploading my videos to YouTube when lo and behold, my favorite guy in the whole wide world, Will Friedle, tweeted a picture of the shirt I gave him! Oh my gosh, I nearly fell off my stool because my legs turned into spaghetti, haha! That was so random. I had always wondered if it fit though. I have two of those shirts, one in white and one in purple. I love it. You can wash it and the artwork will last for awhile as long as you are washing it properly.

Ok, it’s time to go to sleep. Lots to do. Shows to produce, scripts to write, and videos to edit. Happy Halloweeny, Mr. Feeny!

DTM (Doing Too Much)

Man, I haven’t blogged in a minute! Been super busy doing hella shit, aka DTMing it. So much is going on so this blog is going to be all over the place, I bet. I know I’m really late on the train but I’m so happy to hear that Will Friedle got engaged!! I think he got engaged the week before his birthday. You know, for the longest time, I had wondered how I would feel if that ever happened. Would I be sad? Would I be heartbroken? Would I be happy? I was honestly unsure of how I would feel but after I heard, I discovered I was extremely excited for him!! All I want is for him to be happy and that’s all that matters.

The whole month of August, I’ve been trying to get a new job. Something in the filmmaking field would be great since I love it so much. I want to wake up every day wanting to go to work, yknow? I do have a lead for a job but it won’t be available until next year so for now, I’ll have to just grin and bear it.

I’ve also been venturing into vegetarianism. I watched this film called “Unity” which showed across the nation all at the same time on one night. That film was quite effective. It really opened my eyes as to what kind of person I truly want to be. I want to be the most compassionate version of myself that I can be. I still eat eggs and dairy but I think I’m inching my way towards a vegan lifestyle. I really want to watch the documentary “Earthlings” but I’m terrified of seeing any images that will make me sick. Here is a trailer in case anyone is interested. It’s narrated by Joaquin Phoenix.

Thankfully, I have a shit ton of supportive friends, some of which as also vegetarian/vegan so it’s a lot easier when you have support. I’ve been vegetarian for about 3 weeks now. Haven’t lost any weight though. As a matter of fact, I think I might have gained! I’ll need to re-examine my diet one of these days.

What’s also cool that happened today is that my favorite band, Finish Ticket, released their first major label EP!! This is the same band that wrote me a song specifically for my short film, Accident. You can check out the songs on their new EP here on Soundcloud. As a matter of fact, you should totally buy it since it is now available on iTunes, Amazon, Spotify, and Google Play. I am currently downloading it from iTunes as we speak. :0) They are going to do great things someday. They will be as popular as The Killers or Weezer someday. I promise you. Catch them now while you still can. They’re on tour with Twenty One Pilots right now as their opening act. People are being blown away by their music everywhere they go. I know I was.

Oh yes, and the best news this month, I received an email this week with this message:
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YEEEEEE!! This is the festival I had been wanting to get “Accident” into and I’m so glad it did! APAture is a multidisciplinary arts festival that includes film, music, comics, art, literature, etc. I had submitted it last year but it didn’t get in. Then a friend of mine encouraged me to resubmit and it made the cut this year! I’m so excited! I’m currently uploading the ProRes version of it online. It’s been going at it for almost 40 hours so far as it is 15.5 GB!! I can’t wait to see it on the big screen. I did have to fight a little bit because they had asked me to cut it down to 10 min (my short is 11 min 11 sec) but I had to kindly resist because while I did try, I ended up cutting out scenes that I was told were pertinent to the story. Thankfully, my protest got through and I was able to keep my extra 71 seconds of footage. Yesssssssss!!!!! It’s going to play on 10/10/15 at the SF Main Library’s Koret Auditorium. I can’t believe this is happening. If I don’t get into any other festivals, I’d be completely fine with that actually. This was the first festival I had submitted it to last year so that fact that it got rejected back then and now accepted a year later means the world to me.

I’m also excited to participate in the remount of Pilipino Counter Cultural Night (PCCN) next month. I helped produce this show a year ago and it was so popular that a lot of people requested we do it again so that those who couldn’t see it can see it this time. I actually heard that we already have an audience waiting for tickets to go on sale. Perfect! Oh crap, I need to be off book by Tuesday. Better get crackin!

Plus, my comedy troupe Granny Cart Gangstas has decided to do another show next year! We had a very productive meeting last weekend and I can’t wait to start on our material for the show. This time, we are urging some of the other girls to produce the show so that they may learn how to become a producer. This is one of my main goals for my troupe. I want everyone to have produced at least one project whether it be a film, a show, a photoshoot, anything really. Having this amazing sisterhood of women should somehow benefit us one way or another. I’ll post more updates on that another time. I need to go to sleep. Good night! Here’s a pic from our meeting:
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Still Got It, Never Lost It

No, not talking about my cell phone. That’s still in Paris, France. GAH!! Can we talk about Girl Meets Mr. Squirrels Goes To Washington right now??!! I admit, I didn’t get the chance to watch it live but scrolling through all the laughers and the cryers on social media, I felt like I kind of spoiled it for myself. I knew I wasn’t going to react to it the same way I would have if I didn’t read about other people’s reactions. So I woke up this morning and watched it and oh my god, puddles. It got me feeling like I was watching Boy Meets World again, a show that had COMPLETELY disregarded its label as a “sitcom” and decided to become a “sitdram” and make people cry and feel things and be open to new ideas. I would LOVE to live in a world where Eric Matthews made decisions for the future of the children. He has his heart in the right place. I love that line that Tommy(played by the original JB Gaynor) said: “Eric Matthews sacrificed himself for the future of a child. You sacrificed the future of children for yourself, Senator.” That one sentence spoke volumes of what the message was for me.

At one point or another, the line between kid and adult is so thin and I agree, a number should not determine whether or not you can make decisions for the future. Why can’t they have polls where teens can vote too? At least on issues that affect them? Some of my friends’ kids are teenagers and they are some of the most intelligent, compassionate and open-minded people I’ve ever met. I can envision them making decisions that are wiser than an “adult.”

I also really enjoyed the tag back to the “Hair Today, Goon Tomorrow” episode when Eric wore that green bathrobe and had that split chocolate milk. Ahhhh, nothing’s changed in his world. And for those who have never seen the original version, here you go.

Sigh…Will. After all these years, you never lost the capability to affect me. Yeah, you’re really good-looking and lookin good and good at making people laugh whether it’s intentionally or unintentionally. In addition, I remember really being able to see your range when you did that episode where you couldn’t adopt Tommy and I was floored. I can still remember that moment when you wrenched my heart and made me cry. This expression right here captured so much and gave me so many feelings I couldn’t even contain.
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And then 16 years later, Girl Meets Mr. Squirrels Goes To Washington comes along and they hit me in the face with this hug.
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Oh god, I hope there is a season 3. I really feel like they were planting seeds with this episode. Did you see that scene where all the phones went up? Brilliant. That is exactly what happens in today’s society. I saw a lot of people saying they want Will to be a regular cast member. As amazing as that would be, I don’t think it’s going to happen. I know there are a lot of people who thought Will has been literally sitting on his ass doing nothing since Boy Meets World ended in 2000 but he is actually quite the favorite in the voice acting world. At the time when he did that episode with Tommy back in 1999, I do believe he had already dipped his foot into voice acting as Terry McGinnis in Batman Beyond. He even revealed himself as such in “The Truth About Honesty” and if you watched Batman Beyond, you would have gotten the entire irony of the joke.


I just love it when they do that.

If anyone is interested in hearing Will voice act, you can watch Transformers: Robots In Disguise as Bumblebee (yes, he talks now!) on Cartoon Network right now.

In September, You will be able to catch him in the animated series of Guardians Of The Galaxy as Peter Quill aka Star-Lord on Disney XD.

And if anyone went to San Diego Comic Con 2015, hopefully you got to meet this wonderful man there. I would love to see your pictures!

Here are a couple of interviews he did at San Diego Comic Con 2015. Enjoy!
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Oh and if you’re looking for the events he’s talking about, I believe it was Wizard Con and RICC, although I could be wrong.

Girl Meets World Premiere Week!!

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This whole week has been wonderful. I feel like I got to revisit the year 2000. Those were some good times. I was 23 years old, discovering myself, and I took with me all the life lessons Mr. Feeny had taught me and ventured into life with my most fiercest face forward. Being able to see a favorite childhood character get revived is a very special feeling that cannot be replaced. I got that same feeling with NKOTB reunited in 2008.

Just for fun, I jotted down my thoughts right after each episode of GMW Premiere Week and decided to share. Here we go.

Girl Meets Gravity
I was a bit surprised that they went right into the topic of death so early! However, it was a light character so it didn’t hit too hard but still, it got me to feel sorrow, especially when they had that scene in the end where Cory calls Mr. Feeny. Ooooohhhh, I think that really hit deep and got the episode’s lesson ingrained into the audience. I can tell there will be a sense of growth in the show from all the characters. Oh! And the 4th wall! Breaking it is always fun. I can’t wait to see tomorrow’s episode.

Girl Meets The New World
I remember Michael Jacobs once saying that if the audience doesn’t end up caring about what happens to the characters, then they did not do their job. I have to admit, I only really looked forward to the episodes where the old BMW characters would visit and I only really watched the rest of the episodes in order to keep up. There were hits and misses but after watching this episode, I would say that I finally do care about the GMW characters now. They did a fantastic job of capturing the awkwardness of Riley and Lucas’ forced relationship. I feel like Lucas looks a bit old to be in this class though. He needs to stop working out cuz he’s starting to look like a high school senior. Anyway, I loved the scene where Lucas asked Riley about sports and she was like no at first and the way Lucas responded made it seem improvised. I didn’t even feel like he was acting at that moment, it seemed like a real conversation. It was so cute when Riley exposed her hardcore Knicks love and Lucas was so impressed. This was a terrific episode showcasing how you don’t have to be something you’re not just because people expect you to be. I wish I had learned that lesson a long time ago.

Girl Meets The Secret Of Life
I really really loved this episode…and it didn’t even have any Boy Meets World characters in it! This is so great. Finally, I am watching this show and feeling like it is starting to get that Boy Meets World feel that was somewhat missing in Season 1. My favorite scene was the car wash part where Lucas has a bucket over his head and Riley says something along the lines of “You are the first boy I’ve ever liked and that is a big deal. You have to tell me if you’re worth it. ARE YOU WORTH IT?!” And he finally responds under the bucket “Yes.” That was effin beautiful. A guy telling a girl he is worthy of her love. That scene had many layers to me. That Zay guy, I dunno about him. He’s a bit annoying. There seems to be a bigger agenda for his role so I guess we’ll wait and see. Opps! And it’s like they were reading my mind cuz they addressed why Lucas looks so much older than everyone! Ahhh, okay. He’s a year older.

Girl Meets Pluto
Mr. Feeny!!! I can’t believe he’s still around. He’s 88!! He’s like everyone’s favorite grandpa. It would have been nice if the kids got a taste of what Feeny was like to Cory by having them interact more. The part where Riley and Maya did the Feeny Call did not really sit well with me though. Umm, nobody does the Feeny Call except Will Friedle. Everybody knows that so I really don’t understand why that happened. I noticed that Ben and Danielle kind of act a little bit different whenever Rider is on set. They seem less campy and more natural like in Boy Meets World. I mean, there is still a little bit of campiness and I could totally be imagining it but I feel like Ben brings out a different version of Cory when Rider’s in the house. He’s Cory circa 1995, not circa 2015. He’s dorky like 1995 Cory and not zany like 2015 Cory. Why is that?

Girl Meets Mr Squirrels
Omg, I melted. I’ve been vocally anticipating his return to onscreen acting for the last 5 years. And I suspected that whenever he did return, he was going to nail it the way he did back in the day. And he delivered. Boy did he deliver. I mean, I know I saw it already back in December but seeing it all come together and reading tweets that people were saying and trending #GirlMeetsMrSquirrels/#ProudOfWill just made it 10 times more enjoyable. #ProudOfWill is a hashtag that this tweeter named @JonaAlmostFame created to show Will how proud we are of him for coming back onscreen in spite of his anxiety attacks. I thought it was a great idea because Will could see how much we all missed him and love him.

I don’t know how he does it. It’s like no matter how ridiculous Will’s choices are for Eric, we’re sold. We’re on board, we’re convinced, we believe everything. There’s no doubt in our minds. How is this possible? Oh because Will’s amazing and everybody effin knows it. I’m glad Will got to see all the love he was getting on Twitter. He deserves it and he should know it. I wonder what kind of tweets he would be getting if Twitter existed back in the 90s. My favorite part got cut though, sad to say. They did like 7 takes on this scene in the hallway. It was a pick up shot of Will echoing what Lucas was saying. I think Will says to Cory something like “Do you think it’s easy being me?” and he does this hair flip thing which I feel like he had done in Boy Meets World but I can’t remember which episode. And then Cory responds with “Shut up” I think. And I remember every take they did, Will did something different and it was hilarious! I had wondered which take they were going to choose but the whole scene was cut. Aw well, that’s ok. The editors had their reasons. I saw that they kept the take with the continuity issue that I noticed at the taping but whatever. I’m probably the only one who noticed. Will made this episode so funny and I relished in all the references made to Plays With Squirrels. He slipped right back where he left off, not missing even one beat. That’s Talent. I can’t wait to see what he does in his other episodes.

I wore my Plays With Squirrels shirt to celebrate the day. Ooh, it fits a little looser now. Thanks Will. ;0)
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Every time Will ends up on my Yahoo feed, I smile…and take a picture. I know, I’ve got problems. It’s called archiving! :0D
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Watched the show at my friend’s house. Plays With Squirrels is kinda hot, don’t you think? Lookin like a sexy Jesus. Go on, babe. Yeah, you rock that big stick. Mmm hmmm…
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I don’t know what it is about that independently raised left eyebrow. I find it incredibly hot. I just wanna trace it with my finger and kiss it. *shivers*
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I love seeing these guys together. Did you know that if they hug each other, all things will be right in all the world? Yeah, it’s true.
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You know, that is the exact same shirt he was wearing Last Night. WEIRD!!!
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Will’s Living The Dream

Thursday, Will tweeted an interview he did with Phil Morris. It’s about an hour long so if you have time, check it out. Honestly, it could be 10 hours long and I still would have listened to his sexy ass voice. Real talk.

They discussed many topics including how he got into acting, into Boy Meets World, how fate stepped in to have him play Eric Matthews, his family life, direction of today’s television, the type of actor he defines himself as, an absolutely crazy story about Jeff Sherman witnessing a woman die, his work ethics and his anxiety attacks. Plus some other topics that were all very very engaging to me.

Before I get into the part that got me all teary-eyed, the guy Will is talking about who was supposed to play Eric Matthews is Harry Barandes. They kind of look alike but Will was clearly the right choice.
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There were many topics discussed in the podcast but there were some parts that really spoke to me and I wanted to talk about them here. Will told a story about his friend, BMW writer Jeff Sherman and his wife, comedian Wendy Liebman, leaving Will’s house at a later hour than they normally would, missing a freeway entrance that they normally should have taken, and getting into a lane that he just felt like getting into that night and witnessing the car that got into the lane he was just in get plowed into by a drunk driver going 90 mph. He was JUST in that lane. Just writing this gave me chills. It made me think about how God is in charge of everything. When it’s your time, it’s your time. And it just wasn’t Jeff and Wendy’s time. I know it’s just a fictitious movie but it reminds me of the collision scene in “The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.”

Honestly, I believe we’re just here on this planet to experience existentialism in human form, to take care of the planet, and reach our highest potential as human beings before passing into the next phase of life. Everything happens for a reason and everything I’ve ever experienced was meant to be this way. Even when we try to change it, it’s not that we’re fighting fate. I think we’re meant to fight because all the events leading up to this feeling created your emotions to react this way. It’s kind of like how I always envisioned myself getting married in my 20s but if that had happened, I might not have been able to experience all the wonderful things I got to do in my 30s. Jeff and Wendy still had unfinished business to fulfill in this life that caused them to be able to avoid that crash the way that they did and it blows my mind how easily we are reminded every day that life is short, precious and not to be taken for granted. You can read about the crash here and what Jeff wrote that fateful night here. Warning: it WILL give you chills and goosebumps. Don’t drink, get high or text and drive. Like Jeff says, “When you’re driving, just drive.”

I would love to talk about all the other amazing topics that Will and Phil covered but the part that got me all teary-eyed was when Will revealed a most personal and private experience. He stated that during the filming of “H-E-Double Hockey Sticks,” he experienced what he now knows was an anxiety attack. He said that he got on medication for it and that was why he gained weight during Boy Meets World. My heart dropped when he told this story. It hurt me to know he was suffering through these attacks while we were obliviously hanging back enjoying watching him on BMW. I don’t know if I can ever watch those later BMW seasons in the same way. I feel guilty now about all those times I was laughing my ass off at his performance knowing that underneath the facade, he was enduring this medical disorder and just putting on a brave face for us.

I know, I know, he’s not the first celebrity to persevere through something like this and he won’t be the last. In fact, another celebrity I love went through the same exact thing: Jonathan Knight. Yes, I am a bonafide New Kids On The Block fan and I heard all about Jon’s panic attacks, consequently leading him to quit the boy band back in 1994. He talked a little bit about it on Oprah back in 2001…


As you can see, it was heartbreaking to watch Jon physically struggling to get through the show. I never went to any concerts back then but I can’t imagine what it must have felt like spending 5 years performing in front of thousands of people while having this debilitating feeling inside. On the second clip, they briefly mentioned about the attacks feeling like you’re being judged by everyone because your physical state is unknown to everyone watching you and wondering why you’re acting this way. Jordan also talked about having performance anxiety and a light went on in my head. I did a little internet digging and found that performance anxiety was commonly known as stage fright, which is what I feel right before the moment I’m supposed to step out onstage in front of a live audience every time. However, I dismissed it because I thought everyone goes through this but now that I think about it, my fellow cast mates never did look as nervous as I did.

Back in March, my comedy troupe, Granny Cart Gangstas, did a live sketch comedy show and I was in 6 out of the 18 live skits we were doing which was one of the heaviest loads out of the entire troupe. In one of the pieces, it was just me and a mic and since I was alone out there, it made me the most nervous. Albeit, I was discussing my favorite subject of all, Will Friedle, it didn’t make me any less vomity or shaky but I had to put on my game face. I’m not sure if my nervousness came through in my performances. During all the rehearsals, I was fine but when it came to hell week, if we had even just one person in the audience, I freaked. My mind became blocked, my lines got lost and my body began to shake. I would get drymouth and would have to rush to the green room to grab water so that I could speak. In the first few times we did the show, I literally had to down some alcohol right before I went on in order to calm myself. Yes, it is unprofessional but it wasn’t the way I WANTED to go out there, it was the only way I COULD. Nothing heavy, I wasn’t downing Hennessy or anything, just a few sips of Moscato. It gave me a slight numbing feeling and that actually really helped. I eventually got comfortable enough to the point where I didn’t have to drink before I went on but it’s always that first show when I didn’t know how the audience would receive me that made me want to vomit and bail.

Hearing Will talk about the extreme attacks he went through made me feel like my suffering was minuscule & trivial compared to his. Environmental stress is a trigger for these types of attacks. For me, my self-esteem and self-confidence gets affected and thoughts of how others may be negatively judging me will run through my mind and make me feel like running away and canceling. The only thing I can kind of compare it to is that feeling you get when you’re at the top of the first climb on a roller coaster and you are half a second away from the drop and there’s nothing you can do about it. There’s a saying that goes, “What other people think of you is none of your business.” True that it may be, my mind will still create other people’s thoughts for me and about me and that is what affects me. Even though I was crazy happy with the words coming out of my mouth and I knew people will love it, a part of me created mental doubts and it consumed me and I had no idea this was not normal.

There are millions of people in the world who suffer from anxiety disorders and some don’t even recognize what they have. Seeing Will go through it and coming out of it on top showed others who suffered from similar disorders that they can get through it. There is a role model you can look up to and follow by example. Will also mentioned that when he finally decided to come back to onscreen acting through Girl Meets World, the audience gave him a standing ovation and it made him realize that he CAN do this. I’m so happy to have been a part of that standing ovation. I still remember that moment after his introduction when he came out from backstage and we erupted. We completely lost it. Ironically, he was creating panic attacks throughout the whole audience and I bet he had no idea. I thought some people were going to faint. When they were about to start, it would have been useful to have a sign.
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Lol! Good times. Anyway, I’m really happy to see Will thriving like this and he gets to see all the wonderful reactions from his fans about the work he is doing now that he’s on social media. We should all treasure these days. I don’t think he will be on social media forever so I say make the most of it while he’s here. To see him face the one fear he had that kept him from doing what he loved revealed that he is imperfect just like the rest of us but that he is also resilient, setting an example for all of us. And by the way, this man supports charitable causes like Breastcar.com. Ugh! I take it back. He’s perfect. Will’s actions bring forth his strength, courage, perseverance and heroism. I’ll always love you, Will.

Will Friedle Roundup

A collection of all things Will Friedle have been floating around online. Oh, I just love it. I’ve been showing recent pics of him to my friends and also seeing his pics online and most of the comments were something along the lines of “Oh my God! He looks the same!” See? Frozen.






I like how he was completely thrown off by this voice actor, Jon Bailey.

Anthony Tyler Quinn joined Instagram and seems he’s really getting the hang of it!
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Other pics I’ve found online. Maybe you’ll recognize yourself! The internet is truly a vast and perpetual space of randomness but some pics are from a few years ago and if you compare them to the more recent pics, you can see how different Will looked back then. Seems he worked pretty hard to bring back Eric Matthews, circa 1999 and he obviously succeeded.
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Damn. I have more pictures in my phone of Will Friedle than I do of my family. Anyway, here’s an interview he did with Comic Book Resources.

There’s been a lot of buzz about Mr. Feeny and Eric Matthews coming to Girl Meets World next month and I am super excited for fans to see it. I haven’t seen Mr. Feeny’s episodes but I trust it will be wonderful and satisfying. I’m actually quite concerned about seeing comments from Boy Meets World “fans” who absolutely refuse to watch GMW and only want to watch the episodes that Eric or Shawn or Mr. Feeny are in. That makes no sense. How will they understand the relationships between every character? What about the characteristics of each person in the Matthews family and friends who make up the “world” to begin with? And most importantly, if you want to watch old BMW characters on this new show, you have to collaboratively work together to keep the show on the air. If ratings don’t keep up, there isn’t going to BE a show for you to see your old favorites. Thank goodness for the fans from Season 1 who watched the show or else you may NEVER have gotten the opportunity to see Eric or even find out what happened to Mr. Turner, who by the way, is filming his episode this week!

I don’t normally get worked up over nothing but I love what BMW did for my generation and the next generation deserves to have a show affect them in the same way. And yes, everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I’ve said this before. Whatever you say online, you have to take responsibility for it. If you’re going to be an “adult” and trash a kids show, you have to be able to stand behind every word. Even if you didn’t intend to cause other people to not watch the show, it could still happen. And in case you’re not aware, I bet you Michael Jacobs sees what people are saying on Twitter or YouTube or wherever. GMW is his baby and a parent will do everything they can to protect their baby. So, if that means surfing around the internet trying to find out who are GMW friends and who are GMW bullies, then so be it.

Would you say these negative things to them in front of their face? If so, fine, let’s have a healthy debate about it but spewing hateful words calling the show “painful” to watch (so was some of BMW Season 1) or it’s too “colorful” (really??) or it’s too “corny” (it’s a kids show so…) is just downright irresponsible and disrespectful. I think we should just agree to disagree and support just to support and if you end up loving it, great. If not, oh well. At least the next generation will have a show to love and I know for a fact that kids do love it. My friend’s 17-yr-old daughter even loves it!

Here is the Season 1 pilot and it is adorable. (Credits are muted)

Here is the Season 1 Finale and it is also quite adorable. They did a tagback! I love those…

And here is the promo for Girl Meets World Season 2!

Will Friedle at Wonder Con 2015! Finally!

Ok, I think my love for Will Friedle is getting out of control. It may be time to scale back a little. At the end of the day, I am an adult and have responsibilities to tend to…but then again, I ain’t got no kids so, fuck it! I love being able to just leave at a moment’s notice. He tweeted that he was going to be at Wonder Con 2015. My first thought was “Oh NOW you wanna go to Wonder Con? Not when I was there back in 2011? Not when you were a MAIN character for Thundercats?! Comic Con in 2012? 2013? What about ATX?” Sigh…checked my calendar, cancelled my appointment with my tax guy and rented a car. The panel was on Sunday morning so it was actually pretty perfect. I had lunch with some friends on Saturday that I couldn’t cancel…ok, if it was on Sunday, I probably would have cancelled. I’m such an asshole but they would’ve understood. Wonder Con is so chill on Sundays compared to Comic Con in San Diego. I actually really enjoyed myself this time. Well, Wonder Con was chill back in 2011 when it was still in San Francisco but since they moved it to Anaheim, I assumed it had gotten much bigger. Here is the Batman Unlimited: Animal Instincts panel he was a part of:

Yeah, I dunno why Will didn’t correct his name. As a person who spent her whole life hearing people mispronounce her name and saying nothing, I finally realized the importance of correcting your name, because it matters, because I matter. Will, you matter. Anyway, so Will’s not even listed as a guest in the program schedule online so if not for Twitter, I would never have known he was there. Enjoy having Will on Twitter, guys. He won’t be there forever so just relish in it for now. However, Twitter has its disadvantages too. You’ll end up seeing pictures you don’t want to see, which is exactly how I know what that feels like and it is not a pretty feeling. I felt it the day after the GMW pilot taping that was cancelled. I was half a block away and he visited the set with Rider. HALF. A. BLOCK. AWAY!!! Right next to Roscoe’s Chicken n Waffles, man! I never wrote about that experience due to the level of trauma it was for me. Ah well, what could I have done? Stood outside the gate waiting for him to come out? I’m not gonna do that. That’s borderline stalker-y and I’m not about that.

Although, I have to say that it was really fun to pretend onstage. That’s exactly what my Will Friedle pieces were about in “The Ladies & The Tramps.” I created an exaggerated character who goes above and beyond her fanaticism for Will Friedle and the pieces were dispersed throughout the show, creating an arc that resulted in pure satisfactory resolution and not to toot my own horn but it was brilliant and so fun to play. Lauren and I were in a piece called “Plan B” where we played a couple of crazy girls reenacting a scene from Napoleon Dynamite outside of an address that may or may not be Will’s house. That piece is so physical and always had me out of breath at the end. Apparently, audiences loved it too.

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Anyway, my trip was good. No super dense fog this time since I went in the daylight so I didn’t have that “Omg, I’m gonna die out here” feeling that I did that first time. Luckily, all my friends are aware of my Will Friedle fanaticism so I just go to LA and stay with them anytime. The last time I went, I brought 30 It’s Its in a dry ice styrofoam container as a “Thank You for indulging my love for Will Friedle” present. In exchange, she is there to capture my exciting moments and here it is:

He said “I know this lady here” and my first thought was “Haha! I am soooo not a ‘lady’ but I’ll indulge you.” I can get pretty down and dirty. ;0) Y’know, he is just the sweetest celebrity ever and I hope everyone who wants to meet him gets the chance to because they will just love him even more. Will Friedle is a sweetheart like Cory Matthews so imagine that. He’s so gracious and kind and sweet and funny…okay, I’m super jealous. After we left, we went to grab food at the food trucks and while waiting for our food, Zane said “Look, there’s Will” and motioned behind me. I didn’t believe her of course but I turned around anyway and there he was. So, I slowly turned my head away back towards the food truck, hoping he didn’t see me. I know, you’re probably wondering why did I do that. Why didn’t I just talk to him? Well, after meeting so many celebrities, you just kind of know when to push forward and when to pull back. That was a pull back moment. Besides, he was with his gf or wife or life partner or whatever. What could I say?

There was just nothing I would’ve wanted to say to him unless he was alone so that I can embarrass myself on my own. I just, you know, normally, when I’m around celebrities, I’m really calm. Like when I met Jason Marsden? Super calm. No freak outs. On the inside, yes, freaking out a little bit but on the outside, nothing. Maybe that’s why he invited me to his Locker 13 premiere and yes, I totally went. He’s so nice too, not surprisingly. However, I dunno what it is about Will that makes both my insides and outsides just completely lose it and melt and I feel stupid afterward. When I’m normal, I don’t talk fast, I don’t smile all the time, and I don’t forget what I really want to say. I cut it out of the video but between my first pic with him and giving him the shirt, I completely forgot about the shirt until Zane reminded me and even then, I didn’t want to give it to him anymore but she forced me.

This is a list of things I wanted to say but didn’t:
1. “How are you?” Common courtesy, Ava. Common courtesy. You’re an asshole.
2. “I heard you’re writing your 3rd episode of GMW. What’s it about?” Not that he would have told me due to NDAs but I still would have liked to ask.
3. “Why did you take so long to return to GMW? Why not come back in the 1st season like Rider did?” I mean, I did have this theory that he spent a year revamping himself to return back to the 2000 version of himself through working out, shaving and cutting his hair but that’s just a theory. Would have loved to hear it from the horse’s mouth.
4. “What’s your writing process like? Do you use Final Draft?” My writing process involves waiting for inspiration, writing down funny things I hear in my phone so that I can revisit them later, and lots of time spent cooped up in my place, laptop open, and napping in between. Oh, and pencils. I like to write on paper with a pencil in a composition book. The sound of the pages turning after you’ve written on them, I dunno, something so serene about it.
5. “What’s your favorite Asian food? Have you tried Burmese?” I’m just genuinely curious because it’s one of my favorite Asian cuisines.
6. “Will you do the Feeny Call right now?” This should have been number one on my brain…but of course, we all know what was on my filthy brain so it was clouded. Completely clouded.

Ok, reflections. After watching that video of me and Will, I’ve concluded that I hella need to lose weight. No joke anymore. This is the last year that I will be overweight. I used to fantasize about my meeting with Will and in that fantasy, I am not fat, I am normal. Unfortunately, I don’t know what “normal” is but I can’t allow this to continue any further. Whether my theory is true or not, I choose to believe that if Will can do it, so can I. I joined a gym, bought a heart rate monitor, started eating cleaner and walking during my work breaks instead of surfing the web. Damn, I hella wanna challenge Will to a weight loss competition. That would SOOOOOOOOOOOOO motivate me. Haha!

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Sidenote: Just found out today that Will’s episode “Girl Meets Mr. Squirrels” is going to air on 5/15! He tweeted the 14th but I guess he’s at happy hour and that’s ok. I can’t fuckin wait to hear what people say, especially the Boy Meets World fans. They are going to lose. Their. MINDS.

Dear Will Friedle’s MUA

Hello, hi, how ya doin? Great! I am writing to you today because I am sure you will be blessed with the daunting(ha!) task of doing Will Friedle’s make up sometime in the near future when he has to tape for Girl Meets World again. First of all, how exciting is that?! If I were you, I’d have to do a full on workout and drink a gallon of water before he shows up in order to cool my nerves and calm me the fuck down. Namaste… And when he shows up and sits in that chair and says “Do me,” it is at that exact moment that you are treading the valleys of my (sub)conscious fantasies and hold in your hands, my dream job. Just the thought of touching his face gives me goosebumps in my hair follicles. I often wonder what is going through your mind. In my mind, I’d think, “Well, he doesn’t need much but I’m just going to pretend he needs a lot because spending time with such a rare & elusive mortal is precious time well spent.”

However, there has been something brewing in my mind lately. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but Will Friedle has one feature that can convey his emotions to you across the room without raising an arm, without pointing a finger, without saying a word; that eyebrow though. Don’t tell me you haven’t noticed because it is the single most wicked sexy feature on his face that can imprison your melting soul to his stare. Will Friedle is an eyebrow actor and dognabbit, he’s a fuckin GOOD one. Let’s take a look:

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You get the point. So back in the day, when Will played Eric Matthews to the point of perfection via eyebrow, you may notice how dark his facial caterpillars were. They were deep, asymmetrical, bushy yet trim. And over the years (and this happens to everyone so no blame game on anyone,) eyebrows tend to thin out, fade, almost disappear. I assume you know this but for anyone who doesn’t, if you look online, the point at which your eyebrow should end would be at the imaginary point where a line would pass the eyebrow if it were to start at the side of your nose, pass the outer corner of your eye, and hit the eyebrow upon continuation as illustrated in the photo below of the far right line:

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Let’s see how that looks on Will in the 90s.

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Mmmm…yummy. It’s nice and dark, not bushy, not sparse, just the right amount of fur. Let’s see how that looks on Will in the now.

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Clearly, it was overlooked at his taping but I don’t blame you as I would forget my name if it was me who had to pretend like I could make him any more beautiful. Over the years, as all our bodies age, hair starts to come off and sometimes, that affects the eyebrows. All I’m saying is that maybe perhaps you could do your movie magic makeup and turn back some time by drawing in his eyebrows just a little bit? Just enough so that even from across a basketball court, I would be able to tell which team he is rooting for from coast to coast.

Please don’t take this as an insult as it was not written with malice, ill will nor sarcasm. I just would love to be able to see those signature facial expressions again that captured my 16-yr-old heart & soul in 1993. Not that I’m the type of shallow person that judges people by their looks. I love Will no matter what he looks like. I just would love to see how them caterpillars would look today. You have the power and I envy you. Thank you for listening to my ramblings. I am eternally grateful.

Love,

Ava :0D

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